Everything just melts away when I’m lying here

Contradictions.
Of such things like the 'affirmation'/quote above left... I'm sure there is another affirmation out there that contradicts this one. Not exactly the same and exact exact but, I'm thinking you know what I mean?

Cos right now, I'm not getting any attention or love from someone I want... which isn't my BF because I'm single now so... yes. Didn't really want to announce it or mention it but yes. Single life is great but at the same time, when you want something.... like a guy, it's filled with soo much difficulty. Or is it supposed to be? Or referring back to the second affirmation/quote, nothing worth having comes easy....?

We are filled in a world with so many contradictions and standards and just restrictions..

On another note, one of the songs that's been playing quite often on my iTunes.

there are many things I would like to say to you, I don't know how

Just as the title suggests, these past few days, there have been about 3-4 different things that I would like to say but I don't know which to post up. Instead, I have decided to post up today's idea: the feeling of being stuck in a rut and needing to do something about it.

For the past month, I haven't worked because my work thought that I had found full time work. In actual fact, I hadn't and not sure how that idea came about. Possibly a potential employer called her up and that's where the idea came from... but, that's beside the point. I made contact with work and will probably begin to get work again but I think it might be time to move on. I've been there for a year and a half now, most probably and although it is a great job and it pays so well, it's time to move on. To do so, I need to stop being lazy and start using my time more effectively!

I know that many people feel this way and most probably am in the same predicament. I also have a sense of lack of achievement this year... even though I finished and graduated from my studies... I guess there is next year. Hopefully, I haven't bored you with this. To reward, have some pictures from last weekend when I went out for Halloween with my friend. Also expect another "deep" post soon. For some reason, I've really been mulling and thinking deeply, guess that's what happens when you get old...

Oh, also here a few videos of my current favourite songs. One a little depressing and the other not so depressing. I like the lyrics of the second song.




     

Photos under the cut!